Brave Not Smart

I woke up Saturday morning at 6:45 am with the feeling of sheer panic taking over my entire body. This was for two reasons: first, I had to clean the bathroom this weekend and had been putting it off for a week; second, when Kevan and I move back to Wisconsin as of Saturday and yeah still as of today neither of us have jobs yet!

Our plan had been to stay in Housing/Residence Life to help ease the transition and save a few more dollars. As of yet the limited job search that we did has hit a wall, but is still in progress. There are just so many candidates and not enough Residence Director positions for every one. Most of the time it does not matter if you are qualified because we are qualified, it is a matter of are you a good fit for the department.

So why move home without a job and with limited prospects?

Both Kevan and I are generally happy, hopeful and positive people. However, Nebraska and our experience here has turned us grumpy, uninspired, negative, and judgy - GROSS! Some of this is of course on us. As a person you are responsible for making your experience what it is going to be and taking responsibility for your actions and behavior. Our experience however has had a lot to do with our decision to leave.

Bottom line we are not happy here. We have the financial resources and family support to take on an adventure such as this right now and if we don't, if we stayed in Nebraska, I am not sure either of our mental states would make it.

To stay would be safe - we would have a general picture of what would happen and it could be a self-fulfilling prophecy of discomfort and unhappiness.

To go is brave - we have no idea what to expect and from where we are starting it can only go up.

What I have been telling people is that it is Brave not Smart, but I am hopeful that this move and our lives in Wisconsin will put us in a more positive environment. As of right now, we are frantically applying for jobs that come our way and getting excited about move.